Relationships....:)

Since i was stuck in bed yesterday with the cold..i decided to call up a friend..she left me a message about a week ago that she needed to talk to me..well i haven't been the nicest friend..it took me a cold to finally call her! I'm so so sorry...

It was the usual how are you's and the usual how's andrew? I asked her how was the love life and it was a long pause so i'm guessing it wasn't too good.

My friend, lets call her Elise and her boyfriend jack have been together for ages..I envied their relationship when i was single...they were the coolest and sweetest couple i knew..

I told her wassup and she was saying that they've both changed and mature and well its different now. Its one argument after another and she says he's not that sweet or thoughtful anymore. She asked me where was andrew..i told her with pj..he took the day off so i could rest..another big sigh from her.

She said why can't her relationship with jack be like my relationship with pj..i was shocked..I mean i wanted to be like them..

She said after 5 years together she doesn't know whether she's with jack because she is still in love with him or whether its because its safe. If she decides to break it off will she be able to find someone like jack? Even with their differences Jack was financially stable and well they've been together forever...

I think at one point or another we will question our relationships with our other half...i've said many times my relationship with pj is not perfect..we do have our arguments, we do say hurtful stuff to each other at times..but we made it a point to say sorry to each other..We're both very stubborn and never want to loose in an argument but we're learning to compromise.

i love my hubby and i know he loves me...people do question our relationship all the time especially with pj's case(some of you may know) but i honestly can say that i trust him...i've never felt someone love me as much as he does..we've been through hell and he has always held my hand...yes i did feel unappreciated when i had andrew and he didn't understand what i was going through...but i made him understand...

When it comes to our relationship i've learnt never to bottle it up inside..pj has to know how i feel if i like shit or i feel wonderful..

Ofcourse i questioned our relationship...did this guy actually love me enough to marry me or was he doing it because i'm pregnant! I knew it was love when he looked into my eyes and told me lets do this! hahaha

After a while i think we all have the question..Why am i in this relationship?

We get bored and some may cheat and realise it was a mistake..some may regret the decision to break up...we take a break from each other and realise that it wasn't the right thing...From all of my relationship i learnt one thing....BE HONEST TO YOURSELF...

Only you will know if ur not happy..only you will know if ur guilty of sumthin..I've been in a relationship where like Elise i felt it was safe..I've been in a relationship because i was lonely...I never really admitted to myself till now...

I've been selfish in my past relationship...it was about what i want...what i needed..It wasn't about US..Not about WE..it was all me...and I've broke some hearts..and i'm sorry..

Elise my darling...i cannot tell you what u need to do...be honest with yourself and decide...i love you tons...