5 months has passed..

Andrew's 5 months now and i still can't believe it. Its a weird feeling, i know he's mine but it just feels weird, i thought i'll get over it by now but i still haven't. Anyways what is it suppose to feel like? I told my sister in law how i felt and she says she feels the same way with her 6 yr old. Do we feel this way coz we're still young or is that how all parents feel?

What have i learnt so far from this past 5 months?

- Sleep is getting a little better...not great but better!
- Feeding Andrew isn't such an easy task as i thought it would be. He doesn't like peaches?!? Is he really my son?
- Its ok to let other people babysit him while you take some rest.The baby won't forget you.
- Just tell my hubby if i'm tired and ask him nicely and unbelivable sweetly to takeover while i get a rest.
- do let hubby to take care of the baby and not to be afraid that he'll drop him.
- Never leave baby unattended for more then 3 secs.
- Its ok for babies to cry.
-MOMMY KNOW'S BEST NOT DADDY!!(just kidding!)

...Someday

Someday

by: Britney Spears

Nothing seems to be the way

That it used to

Everything seems shallow

God give me truth In me

And tell me somebody's watching

Over me

And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday I will understand

In God's whole plan

And what He's done to me

Oh but maybe someday

I will breathe

And I'll finally see

I'll see it all in my baby

Don't you run too fast my dear

Why don't you stop?

Just stop and listen to your tears

They're all you've got

It's in you

You see somebody's watching

Over you

And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand

In God's whole planAnd what

He does to youOh but maybe someday you will breathe

And you'll finally see

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

No moment will be more true

Than the moment I look at you

It's in youYou see somebody's watching

Over youAnd that is all i'm praying is that

Someday you will understand

In God's whole planAnd what

He does to youOh but maybe someday you will breathe

And you'll finally see

You'll see it all in your baby

Yummy!

The doctor finally gave me a an okay to feed solids to Andrew. I'm only allowed to try new foods every week. Usually they advice parents to introduce new food after 3-5 days but with Andrew's sensitivity to everything, i was advice to wait a week.

The first food i was told to give was single rice grain cereal with iron and zinc. The first few tries was funny,he kept spitting it out onto my face!

His Baptism was last Sunday. He looked so adorable in his white dress, people were coming up to us complimenting him,at the same time asking me whether his girl or a boy! HAHA!. I was so scared that he would just burst out crying duriing the whole thing. He was ok, he started mumbling in the middle that the priest made a joke that Andrew was praying then he fell asleep. The reception was almost a disaster, the AC wasn't working but the food was great, my mom did a good job in decorating place.

His Christening Dress...ain't it cute???

This was taken at the church with some of our friends..

His cake which we forgot to cut because there was so much food!

The food which was all gone by the end of the day!!

With Andrew's godma Anne.

With my mom and cousin.

This is with my godchild, Charmaine!! She's all grown up!(Ain't it obvious how tired i am?)

CAMERON DAVID SIMPSON

Sleepless nights ahead and piles of smelly diapers yet i'd like to congratulate the new parents Elly and Christopher on their adorable little angel!

He's 8lbs 6oz, 50 cm born on June 16, 2005 at 7:23 am by c-section!

Once again, congratulations babe, love you tons. You did a magnificent job on your baby!

...........another day in paradise

Someone asked me yesterday, how do i get through everyday?Its nowhere near easy but honestly when i'm tired and don't think i go for another minute, i just pray and ask for guidance & strength. Prayer gets me through everything nowadays and it works for me.

I thank god everyday for getting me through the day,giving me a beautiful boy,great family and friends and a supportive husband.I don't think i could have handled anything without them.

The cyber cafe is open and is doing ok, not great but ok.I do try to be there as often as i can, it ain't easy commuting with a baby. You've got the stroller,car seat which i keep reminding my husband to bring so i won't have to carry if he's gonna pick us up. Diaper bag and ofcourse my handbag!hehehe. Andrew loves being out, he enjoys seeing different people, he smiles at people its adorable. He does cry ofcourse, thats when he's hungry.

BRITNEY & KEVIN'S CHAOTIC

I've been hearing so much about their reality tv show and i finally got to see an episode yesterday.So, the show is nothing like Nick & Jessica's Newlyweds. The show was raunchy! Kinda like porn without the nakedness. She was bouncing around without a bra and talking about sex. Really raw.

Congrats!

Dearest Anne & Allan,

To the parents to be.Congrats on that little angel growing in you. Bumpy roads ahead, i know you can't stop worrying but think about how much joy this little one's going to bring the both of you! I love you both and will help you in any way i can, your unbelivable generosity will not be forgotten. I'll be here for you through prenatal vitamins to of diaper rash! Congratulations again.

Love,
Sherina,PJ & your godson Andrew

Thanks mom...

My mom and i have a love hate relationship. We butt heads all the time! But eventhough we've fought more times then you can imagine i still love her and i know she'll always be there for me.

When i got pregnant, my mom wasn't happy she kept telling me how difficult it was gonna be. We should have done this first or that, we should have enjoyed ourselves first before jumping into things. I know she was really mad but no matter what she still reminded me everyday to take my prenatal vitamins and drink hot milk instead of cold. On weekends she would make porridge or soup dishes just for me. She would call me after every check up to ask how's the baby.

3 weeks before i gave birth she took me shopping for baby stuff! I seriously haven't bought anything during that point. Everything i had was given to me by my cousin. She bought Andrew's wipes to his onesies.

When i was overdue she would call me every afternoon to make me walk and i would scream at her coz it's freaking snowing then she would say just get off the sofa! My dad had a heart attack and i knew she was gonna be busy with him so i didn't expect anymore calls or food. I didn't even expect her to be there when the baby's born. I was wrong she still did everything.She even told the nurses not to push me into the OR without her seeing me first! Surprisingly, i gave birth on her birthday.

Bringing the baby home was exciting but when i got home, it all felt different. I was in pain, i was hungry for her pot of soup and wanted my mom beside me. I was just so overwhelmed by everything, i didn't expect to have a difficult time just standing up, i was even scared to sneeze just incase my incision would open up.She ofcourse reassured me that wouldn't happen and she put a heavy blanket on my tummy to make it feel a little better. My mom came over with a huge pot of soup and she didn't leave my side till i fell asleep.

After i was hospitalised again, she took leave from work to take care of the baby. I know she annoyed pj and kept calling him to ask how i was doing. She kept calling every 15 minutes. There was one incident when PJ was sick and Andrew had a doctor's appt. As usual my mom came to my rescue, she took andrew to the doctor. I honestly wouldn't know what to do without her.

my hero and saviour, i just hope i'll always be there for my baby as much as you've been there for me. I know i don't say it but i love you.Thank you for everything and i do appreciate everything you've done for me.

i'm no superwoman.

Its been a busy week. We're trying to get the internet cafe going. It seems ok except for the disconnecting line. It'll work for 4 hours then it'll stop. ERRRR. Before finding out i was pregnant pj and i discussed that i'll be incharge of all the technical issues and he'll be incharge of the money and my brother will be managing the place but since i got pregnant i couldn't exactly bend and carry a computer so we postponed the whole thing. Since i had Andrew, i honestly thought i'd be able to get the computers running with Andrew in tow, so i was so wrong i was more worried about leaving Andrew alone in his stroller then wondering if the wireless network was working.It took me awhile to actually ask somebody to help me out because it felt like i was such a failure. But i realised that i would give up anything just for my baby boy.

Speaking bout Andrew, that boy is getting bigger everyday. It feels like yesterday when we brought him home from the hospital.We're gonna start feeding him soon.That's going to be interesting. He's gonna be a big eater i can feel it.Andrew's starting to suck his thumb, actually his whole hand. He seems to prefer that to his pacifier.

Andrew's baptism is on the 19th. With the internet cafe and finding a caterer its a freaking joke. I should really let someone help me out but no, the controlling part of me is at it again.The weather is not making me feel any better. Its finally summer and the heat is making me wanna stay home.One of our friend's called me and said she's vegeterian so hopefully i'd think about her when i find a caterer.I told her not to worry i'll make her a salad and she can choose any dressing she wants. She wasn't very happy with me after that. hehehe.

I'd like to take a moment to thank Anne Ablaza for making the invitations.I'm so grateful that you are unbelivably nice,creative and patient. I'd also like to thank my cousin Janet for sending the souveniers.We love it.I'm so glad that i've got family and friends like you guys.

Ok, I'm gonna take a nap now with Andrew.

hush little baby...

All babies cry that ofcourse includes Andrew, no exception there.It gets frustrating at times but keep in mind the only way a baby can communicate is by crying.Relax, take a deep breathe and everything will be fine.

-Hunger-
The most common reason. If you're baby cries after an hour and you think he/she is still hungry then just feed the poor baby.Some babies like Andrew for instance drinks more frequently then others or you could just give him more so you won't have to be feeding him every hour, this only applies for babies who doesn't keep spitting out their milk.Babies are the happiest when they're at their fullest!

-Dirty or Wet Diaper-
Not all babies mind a wet or dirty diaper, most do, and a clean diaper will stop the crying.

-Colic-
Some babies needd to burp and when they don't they get uneasy because of the trapped air. Very common for the first 3 months. If this happens talk to your pediatrician bout it, there are formulas out there that can help.

-too hot or too cold-
Babies get uncomfortable by the temperature just like we do.If you're feeling hot or cold chances are the baby does too.

-Fatigue-
Some babies including Andrew at times have difficulty falling sleep. At times some babies just need to cry to fall asleep. Eversince i've been babysitting, they have all told me that just leave the baby in the crib put on some soothing music and just let the baby cry.This also teaches the baby how to comfort himself. When it comes to Andrew, i just can't bare for him to cry like that but i do let him cry it out for afternoon naps not more then 15 minutes.Singing and rocking the baby also helps. I saw this on TV and it does help but when i stop doing it, he cries. All you've got to do is carry your baby and make a SHHHHHHH sound next to his ear.


-sick-

When your baby's not feeling well he'll cry.Check if he's got a cold and trust your maternal instincts.

-bored-

Babies do get bored and they do need to be entertained.Make funny faces and talk to your baby.

Sometimes a baby just needs to cry, so stay calm eventhough its hard to do.A baby knows when you're panicking so thats not gonna help.Remember, take a deep breathe.

Mommy's home!

It was a difficult weekend for me. I would usually leave Andrew with my mom-in-law or sis for just a few hours while i go to the gym or just to spend time with PJ. Andrew was sleeping when we left, about 20 minutes later my mom-in-law called saying Andrew wouldn't stop crying and i could really hear him screaming through the phone. We just rushed home, and the moment he saw me he gave me this soft cry and showed me this really sad face. I thought it was funny but then when you think about it. How am i ever gonna leave him? Andrew stopped crying the moment i held him and he laughed!! I felt so bad for the in-laws.

The next day i had an appointment and i couldn't bring Andrew so i decided to leave him with my mom. I was thinking since he's used to being in my mom's place, he wouldn't cry. He still did,mom decided to show him a picture of me. My mom said he was just frowning at and giving out soft cries. She then put my picture by the bassinet and he just fell asleep. Mom said the next time i go out, just leave a shirt that i have used and put it beside him, so he'll think i'm around. I hope that works or else Andrew will be going everywhere with me now! I love that boy.